T.T...infatuation make me hurt...

我真的好喜欢你.

2011-06-02T03:14:00.000-07:00

昨天是很美丽的一天...

第一次和你约会...

第一次载一个女生出去...

第一次驾车去我没驾车去的地方...

第一次送一条链给女生...

第一次可以和你单独相处...

第一次也许也是最后一次吧...

我真的很喜欢你...

看着戏的时候...

也许你没发现，我和喜欢静静的看着你...

因为我也只有在这种时候可以好好的看着你...

虽然我出街的时间不是很久...

但它会是很美丽的回忆...

我希望黑夜来临, 我会是你最耀眼的星星...

因为我真的很想照顾你...

过了明天...你将会属于别人的...

其实我还是很希望你可以重新考虑我的...

可是我真的说不出口...

因为爱一个人应该要看着她幸福...

如果我跟你说了，结果会不一样吗？

我真的不知道...

我只是想告诉你...我会等着你的...

我的心房的门随时都欢迎你进来...

因为你...我才找回了爱一个人的勇气...

所以我真的爱你...

别人总是说...要去爱一个人...就要学会先爱自己...

可是我爱你已超越了爱我自己...

谢谢你...我爱你...

我真的很爱你.

2011-05-27T10:50:00.000-07:00

我们认识的时间也许不长久...

但是我确实很喜欢你

你说你已经做了决定...

我真的很希望你能重新考虑一次的...

虽然我没那份勇气对你说这番话...

但是我心里真的不想失去你...

我知道自己不能那么自私...

可是我还是希望你能给我一次机会...

就算是临死前的挣扎...

最起码我不会那么怨恨我自己...

朋友们都拿我和他来比较...

或许我赢了...

但是失去你我的赢比输更惨...

我宁愿输的人是我...

到最后你选择的人是我...

你说我们相遇太晚...

你和他在一起比较好玩...

是我弄到你很闷吗？我一直都在想着...

我可以很肯定的说...

我很了解你讨厌闷...

所以我都很难努力让你不会那么闷了...

可能我还不够好吧...

我真的希望你可以给我一次机会...

因为我有信心可以让你的生活更精彩...

我可以保证不让你闷透...

我真的爱你...

无题.

2011-05-15T08:47:00.001-07:00

你可能真的不懂.

我其实很多话都不能亲口对你说.

其实我没东西瞒着你.

你看得透我的心吗？

我真的希望你有一天能看得见.

你一定能发现很多我都没法亲口告诉你的东西.

其实我真的很怕很怕.我不懂哪一天我们不能再像以前那么的无说不谈.

我真的很努力很努力了.

也许你觉得我们认识的时间并不长,但是你不懂我有多么的喜欢你.

我不会要你去相信我有多喜欢你,只是希望你明白我做的一切.

不为别人,就只是你.

我不是一个很好很乖的男生.但是我一定会好好的保护呵护照顾你.

我一直都记住你说过的一句话.

如果我要拍拖的话,我就会跟A在一起.

如果没有和A在一起,就不要拍拖了.

我很希望这句话里面的主角会是我.

但是往往事实都不顺意的.

我知道你不喜欢我一直找你.一直和你讲电话.

其实我很明白你要的自由空间.

但是我真的很努力很努力去做了.

我不能控制自己不去想你.但我很努力去控制自己尽量让你自由点.

你是一只爱天空的小鸟.所以我希望我可以成为你生命中的天空.

我想让你自由的飞翔,但是我还在很努力当中.对不起.

如果你面对任何问题,我都不会丢下你一个人去面对.

其实写这篇东西的时候，我的心情是很矛盾的.

此时此刻,你在和A讲着电话.

我的心情却是很凌乱.

我不懂我应该为你开心.

还是为我自己节哀顺变.

因为如果你们和好了,

我可以和你这样相处的日子也就慢慢减少了.

虽然你说:'等他找我才打算啦'

如果他不找你了,

我知道你难免会难过的.

所以其实我很矛盾,我不懂我可以怎样.

因为我想你好,却不想因此就失去了你.

我真的很爱很爱你.因为喜欢已经不能再形容我对你的感情了.

这篇我会把它的font换成最浅的.

我爱你. 12.20am 2011年5月16日.

你...听得见吗？

2011-04-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

我知道你身边有太多的蝴蝶.
你就好象蜜糖那么甜,
对每个人都那么好.
有时我真的很希望,
我会是你在乎的其中一只,
哪怕只有一秒.
我真的好喜欢你.
你知道吗？
我其实有很多的言语,
都没勇气去告诉你.
你说我只有爱玩的一面.
不会看见我认真的样子.
如果你仔细的看,
你会看见我对你是多么的认真.
也许你比较单纯,
所以我总是提醒你要小心.
不是我想太多,
是我不忍心看你伤心流泪的样子.
虽然我不曾见过,
但我也不愿看见你哭泣.
因为我的心会很痛...你知道吗？

Long time ago...

2009-11-19T04:29:00.001-08:00

Wow...such a long time i din open this blog edi...
actually i never think before i will reopen this blog d...
but these day am really sad...
I like a girl for 3 years...
last time she is my girlfriend...But...i still cant forget her...
he got a new boyfriend after the end of our love...
i just always watch her outside her sight view...
Now she is single again...
but she said she have no feel to me...
fine...i tell myself no matter how hard...i wont abandon...
i have waited her for such a long time...i dun want make myself regret anymore...
although i know that is hard to make a girl love you...especially your ex...but i really try my best to cheer her up...
Hope she will know that am really care about her...
I know she scare to love again...
At here i wish to tell you... i wont hurt u...
Maybe am not a good boy...But i will treat you good as much as i can...
from now onwards...I will be mature and try to get good result...I still remember what you say to me...

Sad...T.T

2009-06-25T09:01:00.001-07:00

I was shocked when i heard about the news...
i can't imagine what i have heard...
Is that u?? I keep asking myself...
Really got a bit weird...
U admitted into hospital and have an operation today...
My god...
this is really serious...
I know this time is not a joke...
although we dont know which hospital u are staying now...
But we keep praying for u...
You must come back soon...
We all waiting u...When u come back we sure celebrate with u...
Gambateh oh..Fight it and we will support u as usual...
My friend...U always in the bottom of my heart...
Waiting for u...

Gao...T.T

exam is imminent...

2009-05-09T09:28:00.000-07:00

=[
5 more day...sibeh sienz...
my com make me crazy and i cant even study at all...
haiz...scare my result will bad...
better dun go home...and juz stay at library after skool break...
this make me gone insane...so many things to read...but i have read nothing...and juz playing...
i will force myself study hard...i vow...
@.@
everything is changing...including myself...
a {[boy+freak=stupid]}= me
arR...hope to find back myself...
now...i am tired...and i waste my whole day...sry...
from tomorrow onwards ,i will study...(i hope so)
=]
finally i write my own melody...
happy...
but no use le...
anyway...am happy too...coz this is my first attemp ...
T.T
missing u...memory is the most priceless things to me...but it also make me hurt...

my new song..
for our teacher..

title:我们的曙光

在我们半成熟鲁莽的时候
一束曙光一个希望
一个梦想一片天空
栽培着未来的我们就是您

您是我们的曙光总在我们身旁
不畏惧也不放弃指引正确方向
一步一脚印慢慢照亮我们的明天
让我们成功起航圆梦飞翔

谢谢您我的太阳
你给过的温暖
你的恩惠我们永不忘

谢谢您我的老师
我们会好好长大
希望您永远健康快乐

大转变...

2009-04-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

从朋友变情人...
我真的很开心...
情人再变好友...
我还能够接受...
好友变陌生人...
我无言了...不求什么只为留在你身边...
但我还是必须遭遇这些...痛苦和悲伤...
人生的转折点...不是我想要的...
现在...你不再当我是朋友了...
一句问候...我也不敢了...害怕你不接电话...
你在乎他...我能理解...可是...
你不曾体会过我的在乎...没关系...
为什么连做朋友的资格也要剥夺？！！！
我也是人...我会有累的一天...
在学校看见你...很想很想打招呼...但...
我没有这样做...因为我害怕一个招手...是最后的离别...
宁愿不曾结束我们的友谊...对不起...我爱你...

Nuisance like water diving into my life

2009-04-15T07:34:00.001-07:00

Zzz...this honeymoon year really got many exam...
if not honeymoon year then sure die...
Haha...finally finish my lyric...haha...
teacher said ok liao...so happy ....
this week i use many $ again...
buy this buy that...i should control myself le...
Now being a class monitor so hard...
everyday need to go see discipline teacher...
Because my class edi 4 times...the marks not pass in 卫生整节比赛...
really make me headache...since i became monitor...everyday will go there once...at least....
Anyway...nothing can do le...coz the marks edi came out...
Now just try to make it better and pass...
Everyday play piano...coz nothing can do liao lur...
My lyric
title:笑容

我的心悄悄隐长着一个无底洞
那里悬挂着唯一属于你的笑容
你微笑里面有你的傻傻懵懂
我们手牵着手追寻那彩虹

你的笑容我的纵容还需要一点冲动
你会懂我的梦有你才不成空
我的笑容不再冰冻因为你在我心中
我的虹不虚空紫靛蓝绿黄橙红

我不愿望着你泪流的眼睛通红
不想你的笑容失去在忧心忡忡
抬起头你依然拥有可爱脸孔
不要害怕你的心情会沉重

你的笑容我的纵容还需要一点冲动
你会懂我的梦有你才不成空
我的笑容不再冰冻因为你在我心中
我的虹不虚空紫靛蓝绿黄橙红

although i know it is not so good...i will try to make it better next time...

I have made decision

2009-04-06T05:48:00.000-07:00

today i need go for tuition after my society...
my teacher tell me that he sacrifice two brilliant student becoz of me...
i feel very guilty...I lost all my ways...
i have considered seriously...
I just can let my japanese society go...Maybe tmr i will go find the teacher and discuss with them...Now i really need to abandon it...
Although it is not my cup of tea...i can see your shade in this society...
If i left this society...maybe I cant see her easily anymore...
Dun wanna say this topic anymore...
I think my blog got seldom people see d...so no burden if write anything inside...
My 歌创society de song haven finish writing lor...lack of thinking le...
No more new ideas set in...but the expired date is coming soon...
try my best and put in more effort barh...
Hope can bring happiness to all my friend and you...

A book that gave a meaningful brainwave

2009-03-22T07:17:00.000-07:00

this book de title is 放弃。
有一种勇气叫放弃。放弃是一种智慧，是一种勇气与潇洒，放弃是更深层面的进取。
the 1st time i saw tis book
i have made up my mind to buy it...
all those word is meaningful...No regret after buying it...
Abandon is a kind of courage...
I can really understand what is it...
The book said that...
sometimes your life force you to do somethings you don't like...
you will have to discard all your thing...included love...
We maybe get nothing,but in our life we must learn how to give up...
This book gave me a brainwave that we must appreciate all the people and things that surrounding us...
If someday we face this kind of situation...what can we do??
我们都有过很多的梦想，但不是每个梦想都能够实现的，
如果过分的执着一个不可能实现的梦想，
对于人生却是一种沉重的负担，一种负面的影响，
甚至于一种伤害，所以我们要懂得放弃。
正如：盛开的鲜花为了结出自己的果实，就必须放弃自己美丽的容颜；
要拥有星空灿烂的夜空，就得放弃白画；
放气过了过高的奢望与梦想，脚踏实地，才能获得真实与纵容，也能从新开始。

要我们去明白放弃的确是很简单，可是当要你真正放得下时，会有那么容易吗？

today de basketball match...

2009-03-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

today I have a basketball match...
my team all lose le...
32:5...the score is so cham...
at least we have made and tried our best...
coz they really so pro...
their rebound is so geng xD....
jump so high and their shooter is so form...
so we lose...but we didnt sad...
thank to all of you...
today weather is so hot...
but you all still stay at skool and finish the match...
today's night is quite quiet...
a person sit infront computer and hear the song made by kai zhong...
the song is quite nice...love it ...
i will not make you disappointed de...
Am trying to write the script...
Although i edi have 3 scripts...i still have a lot of space to improve de...
hope they can give me opinion...
Gambateh for our 民歌餐厅...
Haha...

Finally...1st time write chinese...

2009-03-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

樱花般的飘落...
带不走的失落...
会随风而散落...
你对我的冷落...
已在我心里印烙...
只想好好的爱你...
却让我失去了你...
还未为你弹奏的旋律...
等待听众出现的壮丽...
而旋律中都是你的美丽...
音乐的旋律不曾改变...
而人的感情总是在变...
冷了的咖啡...你不再喝了...
淡了的感情...你不再爱了...
留下的记忆...已成了回忆...

Love my society so much...

2009-03-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

Finally i join a great society i ever join...
Love it very much...
can learn many things about music...
write lyrics and make my melody...
love it...muackz...now my beatbox improve a lot...
But still got many place to make it better...haha..
today de society we learn to write our team melody...
although this is the first time...
but it is great...cheerful...
I have written many lyrics...now finally can write my own melody...
Happy...But still got a bit sad...
because my happiness just can share by myself alone...
Anyway...i know you now getting happy...
No need worry about me...i will stay away from you...
I vow will sacrifice all my time and soul to my new society...
The time flies away...all the things have changed...
I am still standstill here...How about you???
Don't ever make yourself regret...be persistence wont blame you...
In our world wont have two sky...
but we manage to create our own sky...Gambateh...

so boring de Sunday...

2009-03-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

this morning...
after finish eating my breakfast...play computer...
until 6p.m...so sienz...
nothing can do...kai mui busy and i scare to find you too...
so just listen song and being a bored person...
today no piano lesson...so nowhere else can go...
haiz...why every sunday is so sienz???
Hope to find a person chat oso no...
lonely set in...hope to ran away from it...
but i cant...
go write taufoo script better...haha...
hope we can finish our masterpiece early...and...
join a competition...
i have trained myself hard to be more happy and stronger...
But i am still missing you...why???
I know you edi got a boyfriend...But still hope can hold you tide...
why???coz i still love you very much...But i wont tell you de...
this night maybe go out eat...but nothing surprise...
as usual...
Arrr...so sienz ah...what can i do ???
brainstrom nonsense things...
Missing something in the deepest sea...How am i find it back???

A week...

2009-03-06T05:23:00.000-08:00

long time no write blog le...
because i always came back so late...so tired edi...
now my sis got a new boyfriend...hope she blissful...
now everybody in LH geng oso couple...
except me and taufoo...
we both now still single...but taufoo got his love de girl edi...
I still love you...But i know...no miracle will happen...
although you are not mine...but my heart is still you...
Now im learning beatbox...i am so happy ....
I also learn about writing scripts...
Without your accompany i feel lonely...
But i will be more stronger...
My exam finish le...But the result is still ok de...
But my class de ppl oso got get very high marks de...
Haiz...many things have to face it...
really hope to be my sis...
Happy always...
Now i am still sick...
Almost have to admit to hospital...luckily nothing...
But my body is still weak and my lungs is still painful...
Maybe i should take good care of my body...
Hope everyone sleep well tonight...
nitez...

HATE HIMMMMMMMMM....

2009-02-17T06:49:00.000-08:00

today...
you still act like a gengster and king...
i hate you...
If you really wanna fight with me...
I wont be scare de...
Come if you want...Waiting ...
you didnt care about our family...
Just always your FRIEND{DAMN+F***}...
Hate all of you...
When speaking must have use the bad word to say hello...
you almost fight with me...
I am siting there waiting for you...
I dont think i will lose if we really fight...
Y you cant care about MUM and DAD???
although you are not....
You should be a good boy...
treat them good and give them a normal life...
now both of them are sick now...
Who knows???
Except me...
alone suffer all this burden...nvm...
I still can hold it...But when the day i have fallen down...
Means all is the end...No more chance to change it anymore...
i want you to lose...no more standing at the top...
I will do it...this is my swear...

An unblissful family...

2009-02-16T06:31:00.000-08:00

My family...
I still remember the 1st day the teacher call me to write my family...
when i was in primary school...
at that time i have a warm and blissful family...
Now all have changed...
As the time flies...all gone with the hurricane...
which break all the relationship between my parents and my elder brother...
Now he always not at home...
We talk not more than 8 words a day...
Now he go find a job herself...
everyday ignore my parents...
Hate him makes my parents sick...however...
he is still my brother...
My 1st younger brother has passed away when i was at the age of 13...
For the following years...many people passed away...
A bit scare about die le...
Now i am the only hope of my family...my younger bro is still childish...
I love my family...but i cant accept all those change in my life...
this obstacles...nobody can share the burden...
how am i gonna get rid of all this things surrounding my brainwave...
Run or Face it...this is the only way i can choose...
wondering...
My house now like a place i hate...i would rather stay at school than stay at home...
everyday go back home so late...Just sit inside cc and watch movie...
this kind of life...i dont even like...But i have no choice...
The final destination of mine is gone...
Where else can i go anymore???
the earth so big...Hope to find a place to be calm down...
My house...My family...Me...

Valetine days

2009-02-14T07:07:00.000-08:00

This year de valentine days...
without you...got a bit depressed seeing other people couple...
But nvm d larr..haha...Hope you enjoy your valentine days oh...
Know you have accept the chocolate...am very happy...
But i know that you accept because you dun wanna hurt me...
thank a lot...i know you really care about him...
that's i know...sorry...causes you in this trouble...
You call your friend take it back...ya...i already know de...
because you scare of your mom and care about your boyfriend...
the bottle i really put many effort to finish it...
If you really wanna return to me...I wont say anything de...
Although that's hurt...it is valuable...because i have set you in a trouble...
Xiao Yan must be blissful forever oh...
Da li will always put my eyesight on you...
today go Jusco...
We ten person go tenpayaki...so full...
the vegetables is so many...ARRR...hate it...
But we all cheerful and delighted...
Although the time is short...but i really thanks you guys...
without you all...today i will be alone...
the moonlight of this night is so beautiful...
due to all the loves and cheerful in the earth...
Happy Valentine Days...
I wanna sleep le ...nitez...Hope today can sleep well...
You too...Must rest early...

valentine day's

2009-02-13T04:34:00.000-08:00

this morning...
all people keep talking about the valentine day's...
they all planing to buy their lover a gift...
after he school...i with many friend go SG,TS and pavilion...
I already buy you a chocolate..
But i have no other meaning...
Just wanna wish you only...really i am...
also got buy for my sis(kai mui)...
tomorrow as usual...i will put it on your table...
then leave...
Hope you can accept my little present...
Just wish you be happy and smiles always...
and forever with your darling...
today my leg so pain...
walk surrounding the Bukit Bintang...
still ok de larr..
scare you will throw all my gift...
all those things is just my wish to you both...
Da Li and Xiao Yan can be good friend de...
I know you maybe will reject it...But...
tomorrow still got computer and maths exam...
so tired after walking a whole day...
alex choose a very nice gift to her girlfriend...
they so sweet...
Hope all those people who couple can be together forever...
the single can find their dream partner...
i will be the bridge for all single...
haha...
wanna go revision le...bb...nitez for everyday...sleep well...

Exam again,,,boring...

2009-02-12T06:23:00.000-08:00

today the exam still ok...
but the physics...haiz...die all...
not enough time to do it...
the chemistry is ok...
tomorrow got biology exam...
no mood to read...so sienz...
memorize some already...
But scare tomorrow will forget...
haiz...hate exam...
so tired to all this kind of exam...
I really wanna study hard...
But the situation make me not to do...
today go back so late...
see YOUR friend su jiun...
a bit scare...but anyway i just stand around there and wait for my taxi...
still got 2 days is the valentine day...
wondering what will your bf buy for you...
think to give you a bar of chocolate...but i scare you think i am like a GLUE STICK...
Haiz...
no more girlfriend and valentine...
dunno wanna do what things at that day...
Maybe stay alone inside my house???
they all couple...but i am a single...
haha...see them all blissful am so happy...
they all treat their gf very nice...
lonely is not pathetic...is a time to face the darkness alone...

My family relationship wanna break le...

2009-02-11T07:49:00.001-08:00

Today...
A bad day...
My father say that if my DAMN bro wanna be like this...
call him leave our house and stay alone...
My father is totally disappointed...and sad...
Worry about him...His body cant be stimulate anymore...
Already so weak le...
Now they all put their hope to me...
I cant decline this...It will let them down de...
Sad and hate my bro very much...
If this family really break...
I wont forgive him...
although i am not a good boy at home...
at least i am really care about my family...
He do nothing...But everyday went home after midnight...
Dad and mum wait him until he reach home...
he still say so many bad words...
Said that who call them to wait him!!!
I hear that makes me very irate...
HATE HIM VERY MUCH....
I already put my greatest effort to remain the relationship between all of us...
Now...I give up already...
Alone suffer all this things...
really cant stand it anymore...
feel miserable...
Alone in darkness without sunlight...scary...pathetic...
I know that i must be strong and tough...
this year... many unhappy things started set into my life...
Oh my god...Hope god bless me...
Need your advice...But i know you wont...
just a dream...
Tell myself...my life sucks...
the person i love the most leave me in doubt...
Now wanna overcome my family obstacles...
I am a teenager who just want a normal life...
But everything is already decided by the GOD...

Happy Birthday to you...

2009-02-10T04:30:00.000-08:00

Today is your birthday...
Know you are very excited...
this morning put the cake at your table...
with silent...then i quickly run away le...
scare give people know...
then watching you at the other side...
today talk to you...
wanna say happy birthday to you...But scare set in...
Sorry...this is the first time i tell you that your boyfriend waiting you at your class...
you ran very quickly...
Know you are very hope to see him...
haha...smile nonsense...
tomorrow still got exam...B.M[sucks]...
wanna study hard le...
haha...hope to get good result...
God bless me please...
XD...
dunno who will celebrate my birthday...
Hope you are the one who say that...
really i am...
the thing you miss wont came back again...that's i know...
just hope you be good and healthy...
^^
dunwan forget bring the ENGLISH BOOK le...haha...
Later the teacher scold again...sshhh...

I sick le...

2009-02-09T05:28:00.001-08:00

Today i go time square and sungai wang...
go with ming and kern...
eat breakfast at oldtown...
the food not bad...
after we wanna buy present...
we just walk around there and see...
got many things can be buy...
But dunno what you like...
scare to give you the cake i buy...
call kern give you ...saud he buy de...
do this things like i am a rat...
live in darkness and scare...
But i have made my decision to love you in a silent...
Today see your boyfriend...
I know you must be there...
But nothing happen...
Thank to god...
later we go eat cake...is very delicious...so full...
Buy a mango cake for you...
Dont know you like or not...
Wanna buy you a present but i scare...
Scare scare and scare again...
this make me crazy...XD...
after that...went home...
sleep for a while...because headache...
wake up i feel my body so hot...highfever...
zzz...dunno why suddenly sick...
nonsense...???
Go piano lesson...express all my feeling in the melody...
become more relax and comfortable...
haha...
trafic jam...so hungry le...
Go buy some medicine...after lunch...i eat some...
Now i wanna go sleep le...
Nite nite...
Thanks for Ming Err and kern accompany today...

Nothing anymore...

2009-02-08T01:06:00.000-08:00

yesterday i chat with you for a while...
I am so happy...indeed...
But i know i cant find you ...
you ask me we still can be friend...
i said that i still consider you as a friend...
actually i still consider you as my love...But not my girlfriend...
this morning...
i have done all my assignment...
but still got many exam at next week...
B.M...
Chemistry...
Physics...
Computer...
hate all those exam...
exam and exam again...
=.=...
Anyway...I will try my best de..
feel so sienz this afteroon..
my sis de phone maybe no$ le...
No one accompany me...
alone...
just sot infront the computer...
On9 and listen song...
hope to change society...
dunno can or not...
Hope the teacher can allow me to change...
haha...xD...

A day passed away...

2009-02-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

this morning...
I have seen you..
run into toilet like a rat...
T.T...really dunno why i run...
nonsene...Scare to face you...
Sry...I really love you so much...
But i still cant find a way to treat you...
SRY...
I still hope to be your friend...
But i dunno how i gonna say that...
hard...badly need a space to calm down and think about it...
every night...seeing the moonlight...
wondering what you are doing...
maybe you are sms with your boyfriend...
i said wanna study hard...
But my heart still missing you...
After school..
go mutiara find friend...
wanna sleep at there but cant...XD...
feel sleepy...
after reaching home...
my house so quiet...
father went overseas...
alone in a house...
four white block surrounding me...
feel lonely at the glance...
But i already used to it le...
after bathing...
rest and went to tuisyen...
came back nothing to eat...
very pathetic...
call McDonald filet o fish...
haha...very nice de...like very much...
wanna rest le...
hope to recovery soon...
My silent love will always be there...

Feel very blue today...

2009-02-06T00:16:00.000-08:00

Today...
Is my new start of my life...
Scare to see you in the corridor...
Run as fast as possible...
Stay beside and watching you talking with your new boy friend...
Pain set in...
Looking at you carefully...You have change...
Not just like the people i know before...
Scare...
Thinking like i am an idiot who keep love but you always tell lies to me...
I am totally freak...indeed...
You said that after breaking with me you wont find another...
But just 3 weeks you haven found another one...
All those things make me crazy...
Still missing you...
What are you doing? wondering...
I have done all my promise to you...
Keep away from you and do not find you anymore...
Sad to make this kind of decision...
Haiz(sigh)...
Know your life is happy...blissful...
But not my friend anymore...
the person who i love the most not my girlfriend...
Maybe i should think in the ways of positive...
feel stifle and depressed...
My bro(a really bad guy)...
Hate him...he makes my parents get disease and sick le...
My father did not eat anything until now...
just because of my F*** bro ...
He doesnt wanna go back to melaka study...
he stay at here is just wanna acts like a king...
hate him very much...yesterday wanna fight with him le...
But think seriously i should be intellect and not just like a red bull fighting ...
Scare my parents cant hold anymore...
my father age have reach 50++...
Know he work hard in order to give us a warmest and blissful life...
Ya...Dad i love you very much...
You have sacrifice all to us...i am proud to be your son...
Thank you...
I promise will get a flying colour result...
Now no more thinking about love...
Just finish doing all important things 1st...
My love to you still standstill at the starting point...
Waiting you and studying hard...
love you...

together again le

2009-02-05T03:01:00.000-08:00

Today...
i feel sad...
indeed...
i have known all the truth by myself alone...
Hope he will treat you very well...
Know you very happy together with him...
sad and happy set in...
because no more worry again...
But sad is because you find a new boyfriend so fast...
Hurt..Is really hurt...
I cant even imagine how i gonna accept this...
I tell myself will stay away from you from now onwards...
Heart is break...ultimately break...
But still love you...
Dunno why you cant so fast start a new love...
think about like i am a stupid who just give a girl i like playing...
sad...
nothing else can say now...
really...feel myself is a freak...
really i am now...
Being a person like an idiot...
stop it!!! I cant even suffer more than this le...
lost my demure smiles le...
heart painful...
you are happy now...
I know...
hope you two can be together forever...
I wanna leave le...
Take care...
No more my shadow or shade in your life le...
I love you...but a good wish to you two ...
From my mouth is hard...sorry...
I apologize for it...
KEEPING MY FINGER CROSS...
HOPE YOU LIVE HAPPY AND BLISSFUL WITH HIM...
Bye...my love ...

Seeing you from the window...

2009-02-04T06:43:00.000-08:00

Today i walk at the school corridor...
As usual...I turn my head in a double quick time to your class...
In order to see you...
You are chat happily with the boy sit besides you...
A kind of feeling jealous set in...
But i know my status...I am no longer your boyfriend...
Your life is without me...at this moment...
You just be yourself...i know...
But i really love you...
Every boyfriend will be jealous if her girlfriend talks with a boy who just knew a few months...I know you will be angry if see this...
But i really care...
My friend always say a word :who cares...
I very mind of...
I cant tell you all my thought and feeling...
because all this feeling surrounding you...
Hope to be graceful..but hard...
I know that i will have a hard time to forget you...
Leaving this place maybe is a god choice...
But my parents wont allow me to do this decision...
I must carry all this burden...
My parents put all their hope at me...
I cant let them down...
But i really miserable...
Cant find a person to tell all this...
Hope that all this leave with the wind...
Wont come back again...
Every night...the place where moonlight shine over...
A person missing in you...
That's me...
People who involve in love obstacles...
Very pathetic...just like me...

Stop annoying...

2009-02-03T07:22:00.001-08:00

Today...
You tell me the reason you cant treat me as a good friend...
is my problem...
Sad...I just think about it seriously...
I just love you only...
Now i put the greatest effort stop annoying you...
Love a girl should give her the greatest...
I have decided let you go...
Watching the bird flying at the sky...
but nothing can do...
Just like me...
I hope a new start from my heart...
The new start is we can become good friend...
I will keep all our sweetest memory in the deepest of my heart...
The day you left = the day i cry
Now...I wont cry anymore...
Not me dont love you already...
But is i change the way to love you...
I know you live blissful and cheerful...
No more worry...I will keep my eyes to you as usual...
Always stand besides you and trust you forever...
Love is a kind of silent too...
I choose the way and i will continue it...
I vow that will be persistence in doing everythings...
include my love to you...
Today i send a message to you...
I
like somethings wrong
oops
very pathetic
everyday so cham
y?
oh...i know le...
u know ?
Add up all the 1st word is I love you...

You want to go out today...

2009-02-02T04:24:00.000-08:00

This morning...
i wake up so early...
In order to find you...
But i feel a little bit scare...
I know that today you will go out...
Dunno where will you go...
Care about it very much...
Calling you this morning...
But just a while only...
I wanna tell you to be carefully...
I am not your boyfriend anymore...
I am afraid that you think me irritated...
So...I tell myself to be silent...
I am boy who just love a girl...
Is you...
I care about all your things...
Why should i suffer all those miserable...
Just love a girl seriously...
Until the night...
I am still worrying about you...
Asking myself...Have you gone home???
All this question...
Set in my brain...
Missing you and worrying about you...
Sorry...Cant tell you all those things...
Maybe this is the place where i can express my mood...
Hope that you put into my arms again...
Really i am...
Loving you...

I tell myself i can do it...

2009-02-01T08:24:00.000-08:00

You have leave me before the CNY...

All sad set in at a glance...

I know you dont love me anymore...

But im still waiting to you...

The day you left...

I tell myself be tough boy...dont cry anymore...

But i still cant do it...

after the call...

I already shed my tears...

I know that you wont care about me anymore...

But im still crying alone in a night...

till the sun raise up...

I know that we have broken up...

Im still used to those all our memory...

With full of our happiness...sadnesss...blissful...

I tell myself...

No matter how hard is it...

I must try to forget you...I must escape from your shade...

I love you...I have given all the best to you...

But at last you also leave me in doubt...

The reason we break is our love becomes light...

The day until now i also cant accept this reason...

But is the real...

I have nothing to say...Just have to accept it...

As the old folk say,a things of beauty is a joy for ever...

Those all memory will always in my deepest heart...